It was late in 1999 that I was diagnosed with Bladder Cancer. I think it was the scariest time of my Life. I had turned 50 years old that November. It was early in 2000 that I had the cancerous growth removed, and it was only after they were able to do a biopsy on the growth that it was diagnosed as CANCEROUS.
I do not care what kind of CANCER one is diagnosed with, the big C causes one's whole Life to pass before one. I immediately started to think that I could possibly DIE with this, at the least having a long time with chemo and radiation treatments. The thought of having my Bladder removed and having a urine bag tied to me for the rest of my Life was not a happy thought. All of these thoughts passed through my mind for the week or so from finding out that it was Cancer.
I decided that I would deal with each of these issues as they came up, that I wouldn't jump to conclusions or make a decision without considerable thought of the options.
I was EXTREMELY lucky, on my first followup (30 days after the operation) they found no further signs of Cancer in my Bladder. The surgeon was successful in removing all of the cancerous growth. This means there was no need for chemo or radiation treatment. Plus I could keep my Bladder.
I had been upset with the Doctors during the whole process. I was and still a heavy smoker, and before the surgery the Doctors were concerned that with my age plus my smoking meant that they did not believe my lungs or my heart would be able to withstand the anesthesia. They thoroughly tested both my lungs and heart and were surprised to find them in good shape. It was frustrating as they almost did not want to help me or to operate knowing I was a smoker, it was simply a fact that they had to. They felt it was my own fault that I got cancer, being a smoker. I asked if they could explain to me - how smoking can affect my BLADDER? I can understand getting cancer of the lungs or throat, but my bladder? None of the Doctors could or would answer this question. It was my GP that finally told me that no one knows what causes these types of cancer (cancer in hollow organs like the bladder - polyps).
I have always BELIEVED that one's health is as much a matter of one's "State of Mind" as it is with physical issues. The four years leading up to the Cancer I was suffering from some serious DEPRESSION.
The scare with Cancer caused me to deal with the DEPRESSION. After the ordeal with the doctors and not having to do any chemo or radiation treatments I was able to focus on dealing with my depression. The first thing I needed to do was to FIND my passion for LIFE again.
In my depressed state I had become tired of this physical life and the society that we live in. I had become tired of the mundane day-to-day activities of Life, it seemed to be an endless effort. Our society was too busy fighting with the different sides and not really accomplishing anything (politics). LIFE just didn't seem to matter much to me anymore.
I have never been much for religion but I have always been spiritual and drawn to NATURE more than our society. I have always found NATURE to be more real and more spiritual than religion or our human society. I turned to NATURE to find my passion of LIFE again!
Up until this time I always saw the Physical and Spiritual as two separate existence. That when I physically die in this physical reality, then I will exist in the spiritual reality, I saw the two realities as separate and not relevant to each other.
When I turned to NATURE I did get some of my passion back for LIFE, it is the beauty and wonder that one can find in NATURE that can inspire. This was the beginning of my Spiritual Journey - Wica, Shamanism, Reiki and other nature based spiritual paths. The first big lesson was how the physical and spiritual are connected and cannot be separated. The second big lesson was how HEALING IS A PROCESS OF BECOMING WHOLE - whole being the unity of physical and spirit.
Thanks Ron for sharing your story like this..
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Yes, I find one of the hardest part about mystery illnesses that seem real intimidating is not jumping to mental conclusions over what it is or what the future will be- I face these fears constantly with my own health challenges, and catch my mind making negative judgments here, often enough.
I think the more confidence that i have in my ability to create life [including health and happiness] and to trust myself, the less fears i will have in general...but aye- it's a process.
Finding my passion for LIFE, is exactly what I am focusing on right now. I went out last night and had a short dancing session, but I really gave it my all..like i was condensing all my energy and bursting it out in a short period of time, because I knew i [probably] shouldn't dance very long and suffer CFS payback. It was great.
I am so mad, that my favorite thing I cannot do.
It makes me want to do it even MORE!
I think this is a good thing:)
Depression that I call a Demon reminds me of the DEMENTORS from Harry Potter. It reminds me of when the dementors attacked Harry on the train and Ron described what it felt like "It felt like I would never be cheerful again...". To me this describes DEEP DEPRESSION.
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